I have two other blogs that I never post in, because they actually have topics and that is way too much pressure for me.
the whole night at work I felt like my LOD was weird. Like, usually he is always checking up on me and giving me crap for everything and joking with me and today he barely talked to me at all!! Really not what I wanted, I'm already having a crappy day. I had to take plan B a couple days ago (I know, tmi), and now the moodyness I think is setting in. 'Cause I feel really shitty about myself today, I don't know why. I feel like a slut, I feel ugly and stupid and I can't help but wonder WTF is wrong with me?! Everyone around me has it figured out to some extent, everyone around me at least has found someone to take solace in. And here I am, at 4am, with a gingerbread latte, roses which I bought for myself, a cat, and 8 betas. That's my solace. Not even my horses anymore. And yes, I am taking my vitamin D.
I just don't even care, right now, I just feel like crying.
oh yeah, it's snowing.
the whole night at work I felt like my LOD was weird. Like, usually he is always checking up on me and giving me crap for everything and joking with me and today he barely talked to me at all!! Really not what I wanted, I'm already having a crappy day. I had to take plan B a couple days ago (I know, tmi), and now the moodyness I think is setting in. 'Cause I feel really shitty about myself today, I don't know why. I feel like a slut, I feel ugly and stupid and I can't help but wonder WTF is wrong with me?! Everyone around me has it figured out to some extent, everyone around me at least has found someone to take solace in. And here I am, at 4am, with a gingerbread latte, roses which I bought for myself, a cat, and 8 betas. That's my solace. Not even my horses anymore. And yes, I am taking my vitamin D.
I just don't even care, right now, I just feel like crying.
oh yeah, it's snowing.
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