did you hear me laughing in your head, when I saw you stuck in a rut again? oh that drink went down smoothly just like the one before the last that you had... I'm going to be the laundry lady that works graveyard movin' shit... ha ha ... it died out long ago...
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
all this woman does is clean
she wakes up, has her coffee, feeds her horses, makes more coffee, and starts cleaning. and she plays some fabulous tunes and she gets a few loads of laundry done every day all the while cleaning the counters and floors and dishes... scrubbing, sanitizing, washing, vacuuming, mopping, dusting, folding, organizing... and then she gets ready for her day - around 3 or 4PM, and goes to clean stalls and ride horses and feed horses and clean up the barn, and then she goes home and eats dinner and showers and goes to bed.
that is currently what my life consists of.... and I gotta admit, I am kind of enjoying it.
that is currently what my life consists of.... and I gotta admit, I am kind of enjoying it.
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Sunday, October 13, 2013
frost on the ground? Already?
Fuck this! It's only freaking October!! Well.. is this normal for October? Hold on I'm checking. Oh... okay. Yes this is normal for October. Dammit. I'm getting a tattoo this week!! I'm super stoked about it but I'm pretty sure it's gonna hurt like hell. I'm getting my gargoyle, Thane, tattooed on my sternum. Apparently that's a rather painful spot to get ink... But I could've guessed that myself. Ahh.. I'm getting kind of nervous thinking about it. I did fine for my other tattoos, but they were both shoulder tats and that's one of the least painful spots. I just tell myself that I'll have to get over it seeing as that I have plans to be covered in ink eventually.
Anyways. must go shower and start my day... It's already quarter to 10. ta~
Anyways. must go shower and start my day... It's already quarter to 10. ta~
Monday, October 7, 2013
What if I cared enough to post every single day?
Or what if I posted every single day multiple times? That would certainly be a lot of posts on this blog. Anyways. I'm really happy. My arm is to the point where I can ride. I mean, I don't have the control that I normally would have, and if the horse I'm riding decided to freak out I wouldn't be able to control that very well... Which is why I am sticking to just my own horses for now, and a few others that I know will be safe for me to ride (Debbie's horse Abby and Rhonda's horse Blitz). I opened a can of ginger ale today, with my right hand. Was very excited about that!! I still can't pick up things that are very heavy... for instance, I cant pick up my laptop with my right hand. That's too heavy (I know. It's bad.), but it's getting better because before I couldn't pick up anything, I couldn't even hold my phone in my right hand. So I am definitely improving. My leg is a little bit more difficult... It is to the point now where the pain isn't too bad, but my whole right leg is just stiff and tense, all the time. If I move at all, my leg muscles tense up way too much and feel like that are about to cramp, but then they don't (probably because I stop doing whatever I'm doing as soon as I feel them start to tense too much). It's even little things, like kneeling down or even just bending my knees.. But again, it is getting a little better. Patience is key, right? I certainly hope so. I was talking to Becka about it, she tore ligaments in her hand a while back (Thanks to Molly, one of Meredith Manor's crazy horses), and even now she still can't fully use that finger the way she did before. So hopefully my arm and leg will be able to fully function again eventually, or at least to the point where I can safely train and ride horses again.
:)
:)
Sunday, October 6, 2013
so irritating...
feel like family is shutting me out for everything because of one decision I made... well sadly for them that is one decision that I am sticking with for quite a long time, so either they will have to get over it and be a supportive family or they can be crappy to me from now on, either way will be doable for me. I love my family so very very much, I have an immense amount of respect for my family. But in return I expect some of that respect back. I am not an idiot, I do not make poor choices and I don't have any serious problems. I am very successful as a 19 year old brand-new college graduate, I am starting my own goddamn business for fuck's sake. So if I make one decision that my family doesn't like or agree with, I think I should be allowed to have that. I shouldn't be shunned for it and I don't much appreciate those looks I've been getting which say to me, "Who are you and what are you doing to my daughter's life?" I am Me I am Abby and I make my own goddamn decisions. Thanks.
lol wait wait wtf?
I thought.... well shit. I had no idea until just now that anyone actually reads this (Aside from my lovely best friend Rowan), and now I'm wondering who takes the time to read my bs ranting? I hope I'm entertaining someone, then :P
moving on. I watched "the secret life of Arietty" it's one of those japanese movies by the same guy who does "ponyo" and "spirited away", I forget the guy's name. I've also watched "howl's great adventure" and you know I gotta say, I really like all of these movies. I'm not terribly into anime, when I was younger I loved Fruits Basket (forever a furuba fan, of course) but that's about it... But this guy makes some good movies. I don't really remember "spirited away" cause it's been like a million years since I've watched it(obviously not actually a million, but ya know it's been a while), I was a kid when I saw it and all I remember is that it kind of freaked me out? haha I should probably watch it again. Anyways, the arietty one was pretty good. I cried at the very end. big shock I cry at just about everything these days lol I'm way too emotional. and again, moving on.
I spent the majority of my day with my dearest other half, and while I was with this beautiful being, I met a couple different (by different I mean seriously different) characters. One guy, I learned, is extremely good at head-butting, and also he thinks it's funny because it always takes a person off guard - a head butt is the last thing you'd expect, right? I'd have to agree with that one. He also told me about how he spent a few years in Dutch Harbor (Alaska) on the crab boats.... (side note: I fucking love Deadliest Catch) and after spending so much time with those fishermen, everyone else is a bunch of pathetic whiney babies. Lol.. I believe it. Another guy I met was pretty drunk, and went on about how he was enlightened by a few documentaries (one of them on mark twain) and was now full of love. He kept asking how he could spread the love, and when he left us we could hear him calling to everyone he passed "spread the love! I've got love to spread!!" the last person I didn't stick around for - not because of him in particular but because I had to go take care of my horses - only said to my love and I, after my love told him "corey's not here right now" (we were house-sitting for his friend Corey). "nah it's cool, I'm just here to blow all his shit up anyway." .... whether or not he was serious, I have no idea. He said it with a grin, and then my love laughed at him, but then hurried to see what the guy was actually up to. I left. hm. Also watched a gay couple in a screaming fight in the parking lot, one of these men was half naked and the two were clearing ending their relationship "give me all my shit back! I need my tv, my xbox, my clothes, my couch," blah blah blah, let's scream about it. While this was going on, the Dutch Harbor head-butting guy was calling to them saying "fight, fight," and "I'll take the ipod!!" Honestly? it was pretty entertaining, the whole day.
There's a serious dog-barking problem down the road.... two boxers, I believe. they are annoying as fuck. but then so are the cows and the train and the coyotes. but I suppose, really it's not that annoying, compared to my cat's constant meowing. Did I mention that his new thing is to tell me he needs me to pick him up by running to my leg, latching onto my ankle with his claws and sinking his teeth into my leg? Yeah. Lovely. but honestly, I love that cat so very much.
I'm done writing this now. It's past midnight which is something that I don't usually do. I need to sleep. must sleep. for beauty. rest. goodnight.
moving on. I watched "the secret life of Arietty" it's one of those japanese movies by the same guy who does "ponyo" and "spirited away", I forget the guy's name. I've also watched "howl's great adventure" and you know I gotta say, I really like all of these movies. I'm not terribly into anime, when I was younger I loved Fruits Basket (forever a furuba fan, of course) but that's about it... But this guy makes some good movies. I don't really remember "spirited away" cause it's been like a million years since I've watched it(obviously not actually a million, but ya know it's been a while), I was a kid when I saw it and all I remember is that it kind of freaked me out? haha I should probably watch it again. Anyways, the arietty one was pretty good. I cried at the very end. big shock I cry at just about everything these days lol I'm way too emotional. and again, moving on.
I spent the majority of my day with my dearest other half, and while I was with this beautiful being, I met a couple different (by different I mean seriously different) characters. One guy, I learned, is extremely good at head-butting, and also he thinks it's funny because it always takes a person off guard - a head butt is the last thing you'd expect, right? I'd have to agree with that one. He also told me about how he spent a few years in Dutch Harbor (Alaska) on the crab boats.... (side note: I fucking love Deadliest Catch) and after spending so much time with those fishermen, everyone else is a bunch of pathetic whiney babies. Lol.. I believe it. Another guy I met was pretty drunk, and went on about how he was enlightened by a few documentaries (one of them on mark twain) and was now full of love. He kept asking how he could spread the love, and when he left us we could hear him calling to everyone he passed "spread the love! I've got love to spread!!" the last person I didn't stick around for - not because of him in particular but because I had to go take care of my horses - only said to my love and I, after my love told him "corey's not here right now" (we were house-sitting for his friend Corey). "nah it's cool, I'm just here to blow all his shit up anyway." .... whether or not he was serious, I have no idea. He said it with a grin, and then my love laughed at him, but then hurried to see what the guy was actually up to. I left. hm. Also watched a gay couple in a screaming fight in the parking lot, one of these men was half naked and the two were clearing ending their relationship "give me all my shit back! I need my tv, my xbox, my clothes, my couch," blah blah blah, let's scream about it. While this was going on, the Dutch Harbor head-butting guy was calling to them saying "fight, fight," and "I'll take the ipod!!" Honestly? it was pretty entertaining, the whole day.
There's a serious dog-barking problem down the road.... two boxers, I believe. they are annoying as fuck. but then so are the cows and the train and the coyotes. but I suppose, really it's not that annoying, compared to my cat's constant meowing. Did I mention that his new thing is to tell me he needs me to pick him up by running to my leg, latching onto my ankle with his claws and sinking his teeth into my leg? Yeah. Lovely. but honestly, I love that cat so very much.
I'm done writing this now. It's past midnight which is something that I don't usually do. I need to sleep. must sleep. for beauty. rest. goodnight.
Friday, October 4, 2013
ok, for real?
sometime people really piss me off.... because they are hurtful! And whether they are doing it intentionally and are giant assholes or if they are just total idiots that don't realize that what they are saying might upset the person they are saying it to, it still pisses me off!! I don't give a fuck about how great shit is for you asshole why don't you go ahead and tell me everything else about your life that is just so goddamn wonderful BUT OH don't forget to counter all that with the fucking fact that your life is oh-so fucking terrible because blah blah blah bullshit no one can possibly understand or have it worse than you. How about, go. fuck. your. self.
But I'd never say that because I'm a nice person and I like to try to spare people's feelings when I can and if holding my tongue will do that then that's what I'll do whenever possible and I gotta say I've gotten A LOT better at keeping my mouth shut for everyone's benefit over the past few months and it's working great, the more I don't say the better so everyone else can go shove it I don't wanna hear your shit I don't wanna hear what's great for you I want to deal with my own goddamn issues thanks!!
now I'm done ranting and am going to bed.... this post may or may not be at any in particular but if it were towards a specific person it wouldn't be anyone of great importance so no worries.
But I'd never say that because I'm a nice person and I like to try to spare people's feelings when I can and if holding my tongue will do that then that's what I'll do whenever possible and I gotta say I've gotten A LOT better at keeping my mouth shut for everyone's benefit over the past few months and it's working great, the more I don't say the better so everyone else can go shove it I don't wanna hear your shit I don't wanna hear what's great for you I want to deal with my own goddamn issues thanks!!
now I'm done ranting and am going to bed.... this post may or may not be at any in particular but if it were towards a specific person it wouldn't be anyone of great importance so no worries.
I've been seriously lacking over here.
For that I apologize... Only not really, since no one really reads this. I apologize mostly to myself because when I write on here I feel much better about things. So, now. It's October. The barn has flooded twice in the past week. My stalls stayed dry, and my hay stayed dry enough to continue using. Half the arena is trashed though and a few stalls flooded to the point where the horses were standing in water. The rubber mats in the breezeway (where we tack up) and in the wash rack were all moved because of so much rushing water. Meanwhile, Dale is on vacation. In Japan. Hope you're having fun - serious sarcasm in case no one else got that.
Also I had a horse incident where a horse and I took a fall through a makeshift roundpen and I injured my arm and knee. It's been a little over a week since the injury and I'm just now starting to be able to use my right arm again... Technically I should still be in a sling, but I'm tired of having everyone do things for me and I've gone too long without riding. It's funny though (not actually funny but you know what I mean), Boo has started acting much different around me. He is so very gentle and patient with me, he wont pull or push or be rude at all. To other people he is short tempered and he even tried to bite Becky a few days ago... But with me he is being very careful. I rode him yesterday, although I can't fully use my right leg or arm - I can, I just can't really use much leg pressure and I don't have enough strength in my arm to deal with any bit-heavy horses (exactly what Boo is)... Nonetheless, I rode him, after he hadn't been ridden in over a week, and he was an ANGEL. Even with an entire side of the arena being wet and slick which we had to avoid the whole time (makes it much harder to do canter circles with such a big horse in that little space of good, dry footing), he did amazingly well. I even got him to start shaping up and using his body in his canter circles. I am an extremely proud horse-mom. Anyways, I should be back to normal in another week or so.
My mom is trading in or selling (don't know which yet) her mini cooper. Finally. What's she getting to replace it? A 2014 Subaru Legacy. She gets in on Monday. I am so jealous, but also so very happy for her!! Thank god there will be no more of that stupid mini cooper. While on the topic of cars, Ted is doing well. Weird strange noises still common, as Ted likes to be heard, but he is doing well and is happy. I love him very much :)
I have found Jordie - more than once now, actually. I found him, then lost him, then found him, and just yesterday it seems that I've lost him again. I bought him a phone the second time I found him, but now that phone is turned off (It's been a little over a week. Seriously, Jordie?). I have all his clothes sitting in my room right now, seeing as that he has been living in some bushes and it's been raining a lot, all his clothes got thoroughly soaked and needed to be washed anyways, so I've done all his laundry and would have folded them too but he likes his clothes folded a specific way so I'm gonna leave that to him... He was supposed to come fold them on Tuesday.... It's Friday, and I haven't heard from him since Wednesday. Maybe I'll find him on Saturday, that's when I found him last time at a park where a church group was giving out free meals and clothing. I know he is trying to get better, and I'm trying to help him as best I can... My family isn't being the most supportive, but I understand they are worried about me. They don't like my decision to fully support him in any way I can, because they are worried I might get hurt or start doing drugs... Neither of those will happen - I mean I'm sure I'll get hurt emotionally, but that's gonna happen regardless of being with Jordie or anyone else. Jordie and I are both Old Souls... He was proud to tell me he was one, he calls it being an "Elder" which is the same as what I call an "Old Soul". Interesting that, while I could tell the moment I met him that he was in fact an Old Soul, I am too, and if he is aware of that he has made no indication of it. I haven't told him, I don't think it matters terribly. Also I don't like telling anyone that. Lol, so I post it on the internet.... Not like anyone reads this anyways, right? :P I started getting a cold, and while complaining about it to Jordie he said, "Do you know any witches?" I refrained from snorting, seeing as that I am a witch, and replied "Yes, of course I do." He smiled and said, "Then just have one make you a potion to get better." Thanks for the advice, Jordie. While it's a great idea, I've just done a healing spell for my arm and it's working beautifully, and I'd like all energies focused on my arm until its better before worrying about a cold.
Anyways, I've got to finish this up so I can go get ready for my day. Teaching a riding lesson this morning, and possibly riding my horses as well. It's a beautiful day today, but sadly it's going to be freezing as well. Great for my cold, eh? :P
Also I had a horse incident where a horse and I took a fall through a makeshift roundpen and I injured my arm and knee. It's been a little over a week since the injury and I'm just now starting to be able to use my right arm again... Technically I should still be in a sling, but I'm tired of having everyone do things for me and I've gone too long without riding. It's funny though (not actually funny but you know what I mean), Boo has started acting much different around me. He is so very gentle and patient with me, he wont pull or push or be rude at all. To other people he is short tempered and he even tried to bite Becky a few days ago... But with me he is being very careful. I rode him yesterday, although I can't fully use my right leg or arm - I can, I just can't really use much leg pressure and I don't have enough strength in my arm to deal with any bit-heavy horses (exactly what Boo is)... Nonetheless, I rode him, after he hadn't been ridden in over a week, and he was an ANGEL. Even with an entire side of the arena being wet and slick which we had to avoid the whole time (makes it much harder to do canter circles with such a big horse in that little space of good, dry footing), he did amazingly well. I even got him to start shaping up and using his body in his canter circles. I am an extremely proud horse-mom. Anyways, I should be back to normal in another week or so.
My mom is trading in or selling (don't know which yet) her mini cooper. Finally. What's she getting to replace it? A 2014 Subaru Legacy. She gets in on Monday. I am so jealous, but also so very happy for her!! Thank god there will be no more of that stupid mini cooper. While on the topic of cars, Ted is doing well. Weird strange noises still common, as Ted likes to be heard, but he is doing well and is happy. I love him very much :)
I have found Jordie - more than once now, actually. I found him, then lost him, then found him, and just yesterday it seems that I've lost him again. I bought him a phone the second time I found him, but now that phone is turned off (It's been a little over a week. Seriously, Jordie?). I have all his clothes sitting in my room right now, seeing as that he has been living in some bushes and it's been raining a lot, all his clothes got thoroughly soaked and needed to be washed anyways, so I've done all his laundry and would have folded them too but he likes his clothes folded a specific way so I'm gonna leave that to him... He was supposed to come fold them on Tuesday.... It's Friday, and I haven't heard from him since Wednesday. Maybe I'll find him on Saturday, that's when I found him last time at a park where a church group was giving out free meals and clothing. I know he is trying to get better, and I'm trying to help him as best I can... My family isn't being the most supportive, but I understand they are worried about me. They don't like my decision to fully support him in any way I can, because they are worried I might get hurt or start doing drugs... Neither of those will happen - I mean I'm sure I'll get hurt emotionally, but that's gonna happen regardless of being with Jordie or anyone else. Jordie and I are both Old Souls... He was proud to tell me he was one, he calls it being an "Elder" which is the same as what I call an "Old Soul". Interesting that, while I could tell the moment I met him that he was in fact an Old Soul, I am too, and if he is aware of that he has made no indication of it. I haven't told him, I don't think it matters terribly. Also I don't like telling anyone that. Lol, so I post it on the internet.... Not like anyone reads this anyways, right? :P I started getting a cold, and while complaining about it to Jordie he said, "Do you know any witches?" I refrained from snorting, seeing as that I am a witch, and replied "Yes, of course I do." He smiled and said, "Then just have one make you a potion to get better." Thanks for the advice, Jordie. While it's a great idea, I've just done a healing spell for my arm and it's working beautifully, and I'd like all energies focused on my arm until its better before worrying about a cold.
Anyways, I've got to finish this up so I can go get ready for my day. Teaching a riding lesson this morning, and possibly riding my horses as well. It's a beautiful day today, but sadly it's going to be freezing as well. Great for my cold, eh? :P
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