I'm dreading this weekend... My parents will be gone.. well my mom comes back saturday night but Ray will be gone all weekend and my mom for half of it and Rowan is gone and Kirsten has once again totally ditched me for Sierra - no surprise but right now I need a friend.. I would hang out with Mikki, since she's like my sister, but honestly its really depressing being with her since when we're together all we can think about is Boat and Ball and we totally just make our depression worse.. lol... I'm so desperate to get my mind off of Ball that I'm making myself as busy as possible... I'll be working at Faith this morning, then going straight to Amber's (yes, AMBER even) to help them get ready for two Belgians moving in, and then back to Ferndale to work with Rowan's mom and Poppy, then back to Faith to ride Skyy, then back home to work in my garden... My day is totally full. You'd think this could keep me from feeling so lonely and sad... It doesn't. Yes, it helps, but not entirely.
What I really really need is for Rowan to get back! Because she's the only friend I want to be with now... I mean jesus... I'm all emotional and pathetic and that's not like me at all and I'm mad that I'm like this because I feel like I should stay strong like I always am but I would be so happy if Ball killed someone to get a plane ticket back home right now. No joke. It's that bad. I need Rowan to come over and smack me in the head and tell me to stop being ridiculous and then give me a hug and then do something crazy so I will stop thinking about him.
askdhgalkgfdjlcugrejks. FUCK. I have to get over this! It's not the end of the world! He's coming back in like 3 months, and then he'll be stuck with me forever or until I get tired of him, and until he comes back I can suck it and fucking spend time with my friends and get shit done and better myself as a person and learn to cook and aklgljndsvs.
What I really really need is for Rowan to get back! Because she's the only friend I want to be with now... I mean jesus... I'm all emotional and pathetic and that's not like me at all and I'm mad that I'm like this because I feel like I should stay strong like I always am but I would be so happy if Ball killed someone to get a plane ticket back home right now. No joke. It's that bad. I need Rowan to come over and smack me in the head and tell me to stop being ridiculous and then give me a hug and then do something crazy so I will stop thinking about him.
askdhgalkgfdjlcugrejks. FUCK. I have to get over this! It's not the end of the world! He's coming back in like 3 months, and then he'll be stuck with me forever or until I get tired of him, and until he comes back I can suck it and fucking spend time with my friends and get shit done and better myself as a person and learn to cook and aklgljndsvs.
I love you and I will be back on Tuesday. I will most certainly smack you, and then hug you, and buy you ice cream and we can kill aliens and make fun of Russian soccer players and all that.
ReplyDeleteokay!! <3 thank you
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