what do you do at 1:30 am and can't sleep even though you have work in the morning?

fucking blog, for the first time since MARCH. Holy shit, now that I think about it, my last post was 5 months ago today.

Since that last post, so much has happened... I can't even describe. And I will finish this by saying that actually I feel like writing on paper instead of typing on a keyboard. So ta.