Actually, it's more of a just what I feel like screaming, or doing, or hexing, or something!!
I am positively livid.
My sisters both moved back in - that's totally fine. move back in, I don't give a shit. But when you start treating my parents disrespectfully and then treat me like shit, purposefully, and TRY to make me upset?? That's what I would call NOT OKAY. On any level, in any way. My mom even said, "She's trying to piss you off, why don't you hit her?" Even if this was a joke on my mom's part, it sounded so fucking nice. But no, actually, I'm civilized and don't resort to physical violence. I also hold back my verbal violence as much as I possibly can which is quite more than most people realize. Instead I say, "I'm leaving, I don't want to be around someone who's gonna be a bitch to me and treat me like shit." Then I go upstairs, fuming, and turn immediately to my lovely book which has been reserved only for one person so far. I've done it once, I've done it twice, and I will SO do it a third time because I do entirely believe in karma, but right now it's not coming fast enough so I'm just gonna help to speed that process.
What I mean is someone does not deserve a single night of sleep without nightmares, someone does not deserve going around from day to day without feeling shitty about everything, someone does not deserve to feel happy or good or even okay, and who knows, maybe someone deserves to get some strange illness??
This would be so much easier if she didn't live in the same house with me.
I'm just saying, and it's only because I feel like it, I'm a lot more than she seems to think she is and just because I will not do something to upset my mother, does not mean I'm weak. At the end of this, I will come out on top and she will be at the bottom. Of a tiny, filthy hole. And that's only what she deserves.
I am positively livid.
My sisters both moved back in - that's totally fine. move back in, I don't give a shit. But when you start treating my parents disrespectfully and then treat me like shit, purposefully, and TRY to make me upset?? That's what I would call NOT OKAY. On any level, in any way. My mom even said, "She's trying to piss you off, why don't you hit her?" Even if this was a joke on my mom's part, it sounded so fucking nice. But no, actually, I'm civilized and don't resort to physical violence. I also hold back my verbal violence as much as I possibly can which is quite more than most people realize. Instead I say, "I'm leaving, I don't want to be around someone who's gonna be a bitch to me and treat me like shit." Then I go upstairs, fuming, and turn immediately to my lovely book which has been reserved only for one person so far. I've done it once, I've done it twice, and I will SO do it a third time because I do entirely believe in karma, but right now it's not coming fast enough so I'm just gonna help to speed that process.
What I mean is someone does not deserve a single night of sleep without nightmares, someone does not deserve going around from day to day without feeling shitty about everything, someone does not deserve to feel happy or good or even okay, and who knows, maybe someone deserves to get some strange illness??
This would be so much easier if she didn't live in the same house with me.
I'm just saying, and it's only because I feel like it, I'm a lot more than she seems to think she is and just because I will not do something to upset my mother, does not mean I'm weak. At the end of this, I will come out on top and she will be at the bottom. Of a tiny, filthy hole. And that's only what she deserves.
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