who do you think I am?!

CAUSE I AM FUCKING LUJA 

What I woke up to...

My cold doubling it's wrath against me. When I finally force myself up and out of bed, I go downstairs to make coffee... Only to find the back door open and snow blowing into the house. Freya had decided that she simply couldn't wait for me to get up to go play in the snow. I have no idea how long she had been outside playing before I finally got up.

Anyways, now I am sitting in my new lovely green chair in my room, with some carrot ginger soup and plenty of coffee. It is time to write. 

Because I'm a terrible person...

I took my dog's ball, when she wasn't paying attention... and have no intentions of giving it back to her.

lol just kidding! I just have it back to her.

I have to bring her to the vet. She has a mysterious bald spot on her nose and I don't like it.

anyways.

I have a job interview today! I'll be going there rightttt after my psychology appointment. and then I will be returning home to clean before a riding lesson tonight.

I GET TO WORK ON THANKSGIVING. Don't worry. Should be mostly stayovers so not a terribly long day.. and it's a holiday so DOUBLE PAY WHAT BITCHES

and then I shall be home for dinner.

and now. that is all. because I have to go take a shower and get ready for my day.

alright then, let's do this

Where does the word 'faery' come from?

well honestly, I'm not the type of person to give a shit about the origin of any word.

so suck it.


but seriously, without the world of the Fae, I would hate my life. 

my lip is bleeding

where's my coffee?

I hate my job

and it's gorgeous out today, not a cloud in the sky. Sadly, the wind is like ice, and it's strong as hell. 

go ahead fly that thing. high, high, fly alone.

we once had things in common. now the only thing we share is the refrigerator. Ice cold baby I told you I'm ice cold. you already flying high....

you always smoking in the house, what if my mother comes over? you cant get up and get a job, cause this little house is getting you by



i had a pilot jones.....

she took me high...

then she took me home,

pilot jones, pilot jones.. 

like, waaahahaahowwww

now I'm somethin' like chemist on campus, but there's no drug arounddddd


novacane novacane novacane novacane novacane
 numb the pain  numb the pain  numb the pain  numb the pain  numb the pain
novacane novacane novacane novacane novacane
for the pain for the pain for the pain for the pain for the pain for the pain

yepyep good song ya~ 

don't look at me like that

I SAID DON'T FUCKING LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT


I'm going to bed. Fuck you all.









Ha. Just kidding. :) 

Hemmy is a good DJ

seriously, you put Esmeralda (iphone) on shuffle, and she plays all the songs you don't want to hear. Then you put a 80 song cd in and shuffle it, now things are up to Hemmy (car)... Every song is exactly what you want to hear. Hemmy will play the music you are in the mood to hear. It's night, you feel like quieter music, and what will you get? You'll get some nice chill songs, scene fives from SWS, some Meiko, Gravity from Sara, Skye's What Wrong with Me, etc. You feeling like you wanna jam? prepare for something like Radioactive or Shake Senora, or possibly some Say Anything. Morning time, haven't had coffee yet? Pilot Jones, Red Hot Chili Peppers Snow and Californacation.

I love Hemmy.

Just. Love.

Last night, I turn on my car, and had a song stuck in my head. What does Hemmy turn on? The exact song, that I wanted to hear.



I have nothing but love for my dearest Mazda. 

it's twelve thirty

A FUCKING M


why am I awake? Well seeing as that I'm 20, it shouldn't be a surprise, because that's totally normal for people my age to be up at this time. BUT ! I am not a normal 20 year old. I like to be asleep by nine. That of course isn't going to happen for the rest of this week seeing as that I work until ten all week (and weekend) but still! I can be in bed and asleep by 10:45 at the latest!!! Yet here I am, awake, at 12:28 in the morning. And what am I doing? Typing this stupid post.

But I can't go to sleep. Because. My cat. Is next to me......... ok that's not actually a problem at all. Um. because. I just drank a soda. No that's not a problem either. uh. I'm out of reasons. I suddenly have a headache (maybe from trying to make excuses for why I can't sleep when really I don't have any and I should just turn off my computer and go to fucking sleep?).

That is all goodnight.

Sweet dreams, internet.

Just kidding, the internet never sleeps. 

holy fucksocks it's windy

That's right. It's windy enough to even say fucksucks. Ever heard of Abby Normal?

I forgot that last night, I used Freya's food bowl as her water bowl, because I was being lazy and didn't want to look for another bowl for her water just then, and this morning when feeding Freya, I poured her food right into her water. Yum Yum, how about some watered down duck and turkey meal?

Anyways. It's really windy out. The sun is shining, bright blue skies, fairly warm too (by that I mean it's not cold), but the wind is so strong that my car door slams shut as soon as you let go of the handle, and the door at the barn barely opens, it's like arm wrestling a giant just to pry it open and then hold it open long enough to sneak inside before it slams shut behind you. You know what that means? Even though the sun is out, my dearest Lucy will be staying in. Because Lucy doesn't care for wind, and while she would be fine with me taking her to and from the fields, I am working tonight and she would definitely not be fine with Sam (or anyone else that isn't me) taking her back inside. There's a very high chance that she would be too nervous and take off or trample Sam and I don't want that happening (for Lucy's sake not Sam's).

Anyway.

I'm going to do something productive for a few hours, then I'm going to head to the barn, and clean Lucy's stall and prep her dinner, and then go to work. I really hope someone is home by the time I leave for work, because I would hate for Freya to have to sit outside in this much wind... It's making her fairly nervous, and I imagine her being left alone in it would freak her out.

That is all now ta

fish

There are fish on the sidebar of this page. Three of them. They are quite lovely. I certainly hope I'm not the only one that feeds them because I very rarely do. If they were real fish, they would most likely be dead by now.

Of course, I'm joking about that, because I have real fish. In fact, I have six of them. And they are all alive and well - actually, I don't know about well, but that's beside the point. They are fed almost every day, and their water changed and bowls cleaned every few weeks - though it should be more frequent than that, I know. It's funny actually, because the whole process takes about 15 minutes, for all six of them, yet I am always too overwhelmed by the thought of doing it that it doesn't get done nearly as often as it should! Maybe I'll do that tomorrow, before I go in to work. In any case, I think they are happy, or at least Special Agent is, because every morning he greets me with happy energy. He's the one that always reminds me to feed them all, actually. And when I work with my magick, they are excellent aids (They all live on my altar, I know six fish seem like a lot for one altar, but my altar is quite large and having three fish on either end of it is in fact lovely and I'm not sure how I would feel without them there). I do have to keep magick books in between their bowls so they can't see each other, because they are betas and would spend their whole days fighting one another through the glass if they could see each other. Except Special Agent, he can see Baby and Franky, and he doesn't give a shit about flaring up and boasting his manliness. In fact, he ignores them. Baby and Franky, though, will get all messed up if they can see each other. And Loki and Nox Jr. will spend hours on end getting in one another's face or picking on poor Sammie, who just wants to mind his own business because he's just a baby. The more I think about these fish, the more I feel as if I am missing one fish. I think that one Friday I'll have to go pick up a baby beta from Petco, and place him in the center of my altar. Of course, Special Agent would probably get jealous that I would put another fish in my center rather than him, when he is in fact my most sacred fish (all six of them are sacred to me, otherwise they wouldn't live on my altar)... So nevermind, maybe I'll get a baby and put him in Special Agent's spot, and move Special Agent next to my altar gargoyle, Thane. That sounds right. But I would have to do a lot of rearranging, because six fish fit perfectly in this space and adding one more would maybe make my altar a bit too full. Yes, now that I have considered this through my writing in this post, I think I won't get another fish. Although I do really love betas.

This is the end of my post, and yes, I am quite strange. But you know, if you're reading this post, and have actually read all the way through to the end right here, then you too are quite strange! And if you read this post and have read previous posts, maybe even check on this blog just to see what strange (or boring and pointless) post I've added, then you are possibly too strange for my liking, and if that's the case then please don't ever try to meet me, because I won't like you. Or maybe I will love you, but you certainly don't want that.


That is all, and goodnight. 

I feel quite better now

I've had some coffee. Not all the coffee that I need to function today, but I've had a cup and I'm working on my second. And. I made a fresh pot of coffee. So I'm set. Thank god!

I have serious plans today. I've had the past two days off and this is my last day off this week soooo I am going to do the productive shit that I haven't been doing the past two days that I should have been doing the entire time.

SUCH AS:

laundry. TONS of it. insane amounts of it.

AND

cleaning. Even more cleaning than laundry. I look around me and all I see is disgustingness. I must get rid of the filth. Now.

but actually not now, because I reserve the right to sit and finish my second (and possibly third) cup of coffee and then have a cigarette before diving in to this craziness that is my day full of cleaning and laundry.

coffee need

now


coffee

death or coffee


those are the only options. 

now I just have one horse (again)

Boo is being rehomed to dear friends of mine. Thank god. Huge weight off my shoulders. Now I've only got one horse to deal with, one horse to worry about and spend money on and give love to. I'm seriously hoping that I will be able to reach my goals now that I've just got Lucy. If I can't, more sacrifices will have to be made..... By that I mean, if I have to sell Lucy, I will. But I'm going to do everything I can to make things work with Lucy.

On a side note,
I saw Jordie today. He's doing well. We had a good evening together and I hope to see him again soon.

Now I'm going to sleep.