From Kansas City

Missouri, not Kansas.

Yesterday Ray and I drove through Ohio, Indiana, Illinois, and through Missouri. We are currently at our hotel room in Kansas City MO.. Today, we will drive through Kansas and partly through Colorado to Denver. It's only our second day!!!!!! I didn't think we would be going this fast. I'm stoked! Once we get to Colorado we have to decide if we are going to explore Colorado some, or just go through Denver and head home! I'm voting for going straight home, but I know Ray really wants to explore. Eh. We shall see! Right now, I'm going to go watch the First 48 and drink my coffee before showering and getting ready for the day. 

MY LAST DAY!

haha! Yeah! Sweet! Whoo! Excitement!


I'm sitting here, with my coffee, listening to Edie Brickel. My keurig is going through detox again, so it smells a lot like vinegar in the crate.
Today, my plans are to finish my last bit of packing, stuff up my lovely and ever-faithful Ted, and finish cleaning the crate. It was lovely living in the crate (sometimes) I feel like the crate and I have a mutual like towards each other. :) I've also got to go to feed tonight, and turn in my crate key to the office. Wow, it's really real. Turning in my key, all my things are back in my car... This is my last morning to sit here, in my bunk bed in west virginia. Tonight, I'll be in Columbus with Ray, in a hotel bed.... And the following night I believe I will be in Missouri. :P

Instead of driving through Indiana, Illinois, Wisconsin, Minnesota, South Dakota, Wyoming, and Montana (And Idaho for two seconds), we will go a different route for a change in scenery (Though I could honestly care less). This time we will go through Indiana, Illinois, Missouri, Kansas, and Colorado. We haven't quite decided where to go from there, either Wyoming and Idaho into Washington, or we can go farther West before heading North, and go through Utah, Nevada, and Oregon. I suppose we'll figure that out when we get to it :P I'll have been through lots of states by the end of all this!

It's almost 9, and the cup of coffee I have now is the last of my coffee stash. What will I do after this? Fold my clothes that I just got out of the drier, get myself dressed and ready for the day, and finish packing!!! 

Message from Faith today

"You still have failing grades in several classes. If you wish to graduate this quarter you had better get your makeups in ASAP."

Um, excuse me? What? I'm pretty 160% positive that all my makeups are in, have been in, for ages. I reply to her message saying, "I have turned in all my makeups, what classes have a failing grade?" NO RESPONSE .


So, I quickly change my heart boxers for a pair of semi-dirty jeans, smearing my still-wet nail polish in the process, ditch my coffee (First cup, mind you), and haul ass down to the office.

Rachel (office lady) looks up my grades. "You aren't failing anything this quarter. It's just business from winter quarter and riding 2 from fall quarter."

"Max told me I was good on business! I turned in those makeups months ago." I said, starting with the easy one. Rachel nods, agreeing with me and saying that she was pretty sure she had heard him saying that to me, too.

"Who did you have for riding?"

"Jen. And I thought I had gotten those in fall quarter, but I found out this quarter that she wanted double what I had turned in. I took care of that several weeks ago, so if anything she should have extra makeups for that class." I explained, TRYING not to sound irritated. "Rachel, I'm leaving tomorrow night. If they want more makeups from me that's fine, I'll do it, but I need to know, like, now."

"Okay, I'll leave them notes again. We'll get this taken care of."

"Thank you." I walk outside the office, and feel like throwing a torch on the goddamn building. They fuckin better get this taken care of!!

If I can't graduate because of their inability to get shit done, I'm going to lose my cool.

I did my shit, now you do yours. Ya know. 'Cause, I'm leaving TOMORROW. I don't want to leave this place still hoping that they have finally gotten around to my grades  and updated my shit.


Ugh. Anyways.

Now I'm back in my crate. Redid the smeared nail polish, finishing my now-cold cup of coffee. Nox wont eat, because he's too cold. Another week, and he'll have his own big tank, a water heater, and some toys even. He'll be a happy fish :) And I will be a happy woman.

Today I am washing all my blankets and pillow cases, doing a little cleaning around the crate, and maybe some yoga. Tomorrow, I'll be doing the rest of my laundry, throwing everything else in my car, and hitting the road! Damn. :)

LETS DO THIS

Monday is over!!! Tomorrow, is Tuesday. All I have to do is... go to horse health... clean a stall or two.... go to feed... and in between that time, I got nothing! I'm already packed as much as I can be, all I have left are the things I need to use on Wednesday.

It's weird, though, because I feel like I should be like, "I'M SO FUCKIN EXCITED I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!" But it's actually kind of surreal. It's like... I am really happy to be going home, and I am so excited. It couldn't come soon enough. But it doesn't feel like I'm leaving yet. Maybe by Thursday, when I'm driving West with Ray it'll sink in all the way; I'm actually done with Meredith Manor, and done with West Virginia. 

Today. Tomorrow. Tomorrow's Tomorrow. GONE!

aaaaaaah three dayssssss!!!!!!!! HOLYYYYY CRAAAAAAPPPPPPPPP

oh by the way...

I love that when he wakes up for just a few minutes, the first thing he does is lean over to text me.. first thing on his mind when he wakes up? ;) me~ 

'Tis Saturday morning.

6:45, Home Time.

And here, breakfast doesn't start til TEN THIRTY and I'm HUNGRY ugh. Good thing I have coffee, otherwise I'd be fuckkkked.

Last night at dinner, Andrea dropped my iPod earplugs into pudding and broke them. So, as having my music playing in my head as much as possible every day, I immediately said "'kay, we're going to walmart. need new ones." and so I went to walmart, called up my NUMBER ONE technology (minus big stuff, that's for Ray) guy, Phil, and bought the suggested earplugs for $20 ($20 that I really shouldn't have spent on earplugs, but hey. It's important to me.)... Got home, plugged them into Helios (my iPod), and chose a song that had really clear vocals followed by crisp bass... If these are good earphones, then you would be able to tell that. Well. I'll tell you now, as I'm still listening to them now (:P) and also listening to the same song as last night... the quality is AMAZING. I absolutely LOVE THEM!!!

Yeah. Really nice..

Anyways.

Today I am going to go have breakfast, and then I'm going to do another load of laundry, and then I'm going to pack some more stuff... and then I'm going to have dinner, and then I'm going to go to the LL for the last time ever, and then I'm going to just have a nice relaxing evening. Yeah. I like it. 

last. friday.!!!!!

well sirs! today is in fact my LAST Friday at this schoooooool! So, looking back, Becka thinks that I sucked at this school pretty majorly. And, she's right. But honestly? There's a lot more to life than school. School sets you up for some things, yes, but there's a lot that school doesn't set you up for and I'm confident that I'll be able to succeed at the things that matter... I'll succeed at what I need to succeed at to get to where I want to be. And that is what is important... That will make my family proud, that will remind my parents that no, I do not totally suck.

And I'm coming back as a different person... Well, not different, but definitely changed. I know that I've gotten a little healthier, and a little unhealthier. My state of mind has gone down, but that doesn't mean I can let anyone know that. I've learned how to stand up for myself more, how to deal with bullshit and not deal with it at the same time. I know now where the line is. When this school says they teach "professionalism", they mean wearing uncomfortable clothing and putting a smile on your face, and keeping all your nasty comments to yourself AT LEAST UNTIL your client isn't listening. Real professionalism? In my opinion, that is wearing what you and your client are both comfortable with, putting a smile on your face, and keeping all your nasty comments to yourself all the time. No one wants to hear it, and if someone does hear it, you know it'll circle back to the one person that definitely should not hear it.


Anyways.
It's 7:30 right now ... listening to Gogol Bordello, Alcohol... Maybe I should go get ready for school? Nah, I already am ready for school! Oh and by the way! Today is my first day not smoking, for real this time. I got no more cigarettes, and I have no more reason to smoke them. I'm almsot done with school, I'm almost done with West Virginia... I'm going back home, and home doesn't need an Abby that smokes. 

..... and THEN, he said.

"I have 12 .. 13 .. 14 15, 15 dollars in my pocket! oh and a quarter…and a couple dimes. dimes add up. and a nickel! oh, and I could get that penny over there... but I'm too lazy, it's just a penny." 

..... yep.

and then he said

tell Cupid that I've fallin in love with you

Quick Note

WHYDOILETMYSELFWORRYABOUTTHISSTUPIDSHITTHATDOESNTEVENDIRECTLYEFFECTMEGODFUCKINGDAMMITINEEDTOFOCUSONMYOWNSHITANDNOTLETOTHERPEOPLESSHITBOTHERMESOFREAKINGMUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



UGH!! 

So, tomorrow is Monday

Mondaayyy~ I'm okay with it, because I'm SO CLOSE to the end! I have Monday, then Tuesday, then Thursday, then Friday, then Monday, then Tuesday, THEN I'M LEAVING!!!! hehaaah~ I am so fuckin stoked!!!!!!!!!! 

About Yesterday Morning...

Yeah, it's the same again today. In fact, on weekends, I really feel like that. And on days when my roommate sleeps in past her alarm and is still here when I wake up.

I like her, I just don't like living with people. Especially in such a small space, ya know? 

morninggg

ugh mornings like this, I wish I lived alone 

not sure what to title this

I killed an ant in my bed today. ..... they are slowly but surely taking over this crate (the bugs). Hopefully, I'll be out of here before they are too overwhelming. Moving on.

Started out my day feeling like shit (food poisoning from the WV caf trying to make chinese food, ha!), my labret falling out and down the drain, rope burns all over my hands from ASTRO (Nancy call him, ASStro), and spilling hot chocolate all over myself. I decided that with my luck, it would be best for me to NOT go to leather working where I can easily harm myself with sharp, heavy and/or pointy objects. Sorry, Max. It was really for the better. I slept instead, woke up to find that my training class was cancelled. Feed went fine, dinner was fine (safe to eat this time, I think hope). Went to go on a walk with Becka, and we stopped for coffee at Tim Hortons. My card was being declined repeatedly but I assured the lady there was in fact money on it. I checked my account on my phone and found that I actually did not have the $30 I thought was in there, but in fact there was $230. My dad sent money, and I didn't even know about it. Ha. So in the end it was their machine being stupid, we got our coffees and went to watch a track meet. Got bored within 15-20 minutes, and decided to go to LURE to get my lip redone. Chris did it for $20, I gave him $40 (tip for the dermals, still) and then Becka and I went to see the new Star Trek. Good movie.. A little long, slightly drawn out, but good. We just got back, and it's half past one in the morning. I'm not tired enough yet, hence the post. I think now I'm going to plug in my headphones (or not, I'm too lazy to be going to get my headphones out of my bag) and write a little or read a little. Good night. 

MY FUCKING LABRET FELL OUT

I was just brushing my teeth, and I accidentally hit the inside of my labret kinda hard with the back of my tooth brush, and poof just like that falls out and goes down the drain :((((

noooooooooooooo my life sucks!!!!!!!

Every day we get closer

and holy crap am I so excited!!!!

I don't exactly have a point to this post... Just feel like writing something. It's Friday morning, 7:20... I have class in 40 minutes. I should go get ready. K bye! 

THURSDAY MORNING, Here comes the snake

By Cherry Poppin' Daddies

Don't know how I feel about this first thing in the AM... Just kidding, I'm down with it. Yo.

Braided hair last night before bed. This morning, my hair is SO MUCH NICER than yesterday's hair. I really need to start braiding my hair EVERY night, so it's controllable the next day. WV pollution makes it hard to look nice, hair and skin-wise. I take my supplements, vitamins D, C & B, and my folic acid. I'm doing what I can, now I just need to be back where the air around me is at least somewhat clean.


We've changed from Cherry Poppin' Daddies to the ever lovely Regina Spektor, and with that I shall finish up my coffee and start getting ready for my day.

(Because I don't quite have the motivation to get up), today consists of;
1. Breakfast (skipping, I think)
2. Training - sit in class for 20 minutes, go get Ada, work her for 40 minutes, put her back, go sit in class again for the remaining 20 minutes.
3. Horse Health - a bunch of bullshit for 2 hours
4. LUNCHHHHH YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and possibly skype someone from home???
5. Leather Working - finish crown piece of halter!!! Possibly start on next piece?
6. Clean. Stalls.
7. Chill for like 40 min?
8. Get Robin ready!!!
9. Training with Robin :)
10. Put Robin away, rehydrate and change shirt
11. Evening Feed - takes too long for what it is, fo' real!
12. Dinner~~ Hopefully something tasty, shit dude.
13. SHOWERRRR WHOO!
14. Maybe skype Peter? Research paper, laundry, dishes, sweep, mental yoga (LOL), netflix maaaybe, whatevs I feel like doing!
15. SLEEP AND REPEAT!

aha, 2 weeks left dude~ (Exactly, 1 week and 6 days)


Grandma eats a grandmuffin. 

So like, uhh

It's 9:20. I need to start my goddamn day. First step- change music from soft evening music, to something more lively. OK, done.

Second step. quit writing this. .....dammit. 

these mornings can't compare to the old ones

And honestly...? I wanna go back.

Are you surprised? :P

My goddamn allergies are SO FUCKING ANNOYING!!!!!!! holy crap!!! UGH!

Should I be mad?

Or just kinda feel bad for the guy?

I mean, it can't be his fault that he sucks at planning anything or being reliable or anything of that sort. Right?

Please agree with me, whoever reads this.
Or disagree, that works too. Should I deal with it or not? It bugs me. I tell him about it, we talk about it, he says he will stop doing that, and then twenty minutes later he's back to doing what he did before. He apologizes... Is that even sincere? If it is, is it enough? Can he ever actually go through with what he says he will do? ... Should I put myself through this? I don't need it. I don't need him (I can't). So what makes me deal with it...?

Fuck, ya know. I say fuck for everything, but please don't let that take any value out of the word. 

Friday the 13th?

I'm more freaked by MONDAY the 13th.

fah real. 

really excited for when the time comes

The time for me to start my own family!!! I don't know who I'll be making my family with - someone that hopefully I can stay with for the rest of my life - but I really am excited for that chapter of my life. Just sayin'.

happy mothers day

to my beautiful amazing wonderful fabulous mother who I owe everything to!! I love you!!!!!! 

It's time

Today, while I was sitting in the green classroom, talking to strangers about Meredith Manor and horse health, my best friend from middle school was having a baby. Her name is Nevaeh Rain Williams. Welcome to Earth (again, maybe), you're already adored and loved by many, and you've got a good mama.


Moving on.

Took claritin clear non-drowsy, which got me high, then Chris gave me a caffeine pill while I was still high on allergy meds and then I was just fuckin off my rocker. Ended up in me being crazy, stupid, not making sense, freaking out, having crazy mood swings, and eventually buying more cigarettes and bitching out everyone that currently pisses me off with Becka.


Oh, and here's one. If Christina says one more damn thing about PETER, I'm going to fuckin lose it. I'm going to bitch her out like she's never been bitched out before and I might fuckin' beat her face in while I'm at it!! SHE DOESNT KNOW HIM AND SHE BARELY EVER KNOWS ME, yet she's got the audacity to tell me every fucking day that HE is a disgusting asshole douchebag chink that I shouldn't be wasting my time with. How about, mind your own goddamn business and shut the fuck up about shit you have no right to be sayin shit about especially when you don't even know what you're talking about!!!!!! Seriously, the next time she says a WORD about him, I am going to lose it.

Anyways.
I gave my phone number to a pole dancing stripper today. She wants to take Becka and I clubbing before we leave in a few weeks. ha.. 

Today is visitors day

I'm sitting here with(out) my coffee, wishing I was with coffee. Becka didn't get in until 5 this morning, and she's already out there doin' her job. So when she stopped by so we could talk a bit, she pretty much right away stole my joe from me. It's whatevs, I'll make more.

Moving on.

I have to be at green classroom at 11, where I will stay until 1... Then I'll be going to the leather shop for a while, and then I will leave. Becka and I will go visit our friend Chris at LURE. And we WOULD go buy some food, but I'm a broke ass nigga. So, that's out. ha.

I'm wearing my blue Meredith Manor shirt. It's a size small, but it's still too big for me. Annoying. I don't have any clean jeans to wear, but we're supposed to look professional. I guess I'll find my jeans with the least amount of dirt on them to wear for a few hours. As soon as we're done, the sweats are comin' back on. I have to finish all my makeups THIS WEEKEND. Because next week is week TEN! and I need them finished by then!! So, yeah. I'm going to do two more observations just to be sure I'm in the clear with Jen V.

I have two full weeks of class left, and then my final two days of week 12 before I leave on Wednesday the 29th. It's funny, I don't feel like I'm about to leave in two weeks. But it'll go by quicker than I think, and pretty soon I'll be hurrying to pack all my shit in Ted and GTFO!!! I'm just relieved that in less than a month, I'm going to be out of West Virginia. I'm going to be back home... I'm going to be back where I should be, where my silly cat is waiting, where my WHOLE FUCKIN LIFE is waiting. Waiting impatiently, I may add, in fact it's about ready to move on without me. Imagine that, Abby's life without Abby. That certainly wont do, I have plans!! 

my witchy rantings are beginning

too much gumption, maybe... either way I've felt the need to spit out all my views and opinions and thoughts, and I put them all on my new blog called Witch. 

http://gaiaboninajewels.blogspot.com/


that's where it's at, yo 

Training, Feed, Dinner, WEEKEND!!!!!!

weekend which includes: visitor's day at MEREDITH MANOR. which I have to participate in. uuuhuh.


some weekend. 

threeeeeeeee

weeeeeeekssss


leeeeeffffftttttttttt~

who got dermals?

I GOT DERMALS

mo' fuckas ! ahaha 

just found this, lol

witchy woman, right? lol

I don't even want to talk about last night

I'm just going to leave it at this:

Rodents are nocturnal. Why do humans buy rodents as pets when all the rodent does is sleep throughout the day, and then become extremely active - and loud - at night? When the human is in fact trying to sleep? Some humans may be able to sleep through this (roommate), but others (ME) cannot, and after a long as fucking week at MM the last thing I want is to be kept up by some stupid, freaky albino rodent!!!!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY WHEN I HAVE WEEKEND FEED.



I ended up sleeping in my car, in a parking lot at a golf course. Hours of sleep I got?
Under 4. 

It's May

MAY SECOND!!!!


which means.
I'm on.
My last.
MONTH!!!!



I AM SO CLOSE IT'S INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Yay !