I think someone might be getting attached...

Ms. Robin is getting a little attached to me, I think. She sees me this morning, getting Sassy ready for training a few stalls down from her. Seeing me, she perks her ears forward and nods her head at me a little.
"Hi, Robin!" I say, and she nickers at me excitedly. I shake my head, and Sassy sticks her head out of the stall to look at Robin with me.
"Sorry, Robin... I'm not cheating on you, I just have to do this. It's my grade," I explain,  backing Sassy up (She decided to try to walk out of her stall at this point). Robin starts nickering and  grunting at me, shaking her head around in the air.
"I'll be back for you later!! And I'll bring you a candy as soon as I'm done with Sassy, I promise." I tell her, but she just continues to stare at me like a little puppy, nickering at me.
Knowing I won't get anywhere with Robin, I finish getting Sassy ready and take her out of her stall. As we leave the barn, I hear Robin yelling after me and kicking her stall in anger. Lol..

When I get back, I give her the ginger candy I had promised, and she takes it politely.
"Sorry about that. I'll work you later, I promise." I say, and in response to that she pins her ears and swings her butt to kick at me. I jump out of the way, and snap my fingers and point at her.
"Not polite, Robin! Sheesh!" I say as she backs up with her head down. "Yeah. Huh." I put my hand on her poll softly, and she drops her head to my hip so I can easily rub her head and ears.
"Love you, too."


That horse.

Please explain to me how this makes sense.

This instructor is one of the most disliked on campus. She is a good teacher, except she gets pissed about stupid things and will bitch everyone out for totally unimportant things!!

Now, I am not a good student. Never have been, probably never will be. However, this instructor has never yelled at me, bitched me out, or even sounded annoyed with me. ...... HOW DOES THIS MAKE SENSE?!

serenity does become you

I'm glad that I'm still the one who you can see when you close your eyes... 

I officially hate rodents

holy damn fuck they are annoying.... five weeks of this?? they wont make my last bit easy 

why we listenin' to me speakin?

imma say whateva come to mah head, I like chicken, chicken, chicken, chicken, macaroni, potato salad, chicken, I am out, bitches.

Can I go home yet?

Six weeks really can't come fast enough. I know it's like, right there. I can almost taste it. I just want to go home, ya know? I want to see my mom or Ray (don't care which) coming out of the airport and hugging me and getting in Ted with me so we can DRIVE. I have been considering just driving back home on my own for the past 8 months, but never went through with it (obviously). And I wouldn't, and I won't, I'm going to finish school and drive back to Washington with a piece of paper that says I'm an Equine Science Master.

And then I am NEVER COMING BACK!


Ted is all fixed and ready for the drive (he feels fantastic), Nox & Oedipus are ready to be in the GreenState, my little altar is more than ready to go back and be a part of My Altar where it should be. My cat is ready for me to be home, so he can finally have His Human back, so he can finally have someone to converse with again. I am ready to have My Familiar back, so someone can help me make sense of everything again. And I am so ready to ride my horses. I know I wont be able to ride Skyy right away, since she's still on a care lease... But at least I'll get my Boo back. I want my Boo back, and my Skyy back. I miss my dog, but she isn't my dog anymore, and I am separated from those feelings. I will be happy to visit her again, though.

Please, time, go by quickly, so I can go home and start my life! 

got mah lip done

mmmmmhmm.

writing about writing

it's happening now 

One Month, Two Weeks.

AND I WILL BE HOME. 

I want to hurt you,

"But you can't 'cause I'm already dead!!"

I lift weights, but I don't sweat,
I go for a swim, but I don't get wet.


AND I CAN SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOU






.... Yeah I'm weird, but so are The Unicorns. 

saaaaaaaaaayyy what?

haha

I don't like to be touched.

what do you do when someone says that? you think they like you, you think you might be goin' somewhere with this person... and then they say, completely seriously, "I don't like to be touched." ......what do ya do? haha awkward~! 

Why is my DragonVale not loading?!?!

I must check on my dragons!!!!!!! And it wont load!!! :( What do I do?!

I'm at a loss. I only have 15 minutes before class, and this stupid thing wont even load!!! I'm going to try it on my phone.....

YESSSSS It's loading on my iphone. thank god for having 4 different Apple products. Okay, I'm going to go play DragonVale before class.

Ta! 

first sunday with new roommate

Yeah did I mention I have a new roommate? Her name is Sam. She's nice. She moved in due to problems with her old roommate... So far, she is either not here, sleeping, or talking to her boyfriend on oovoo. So, I like her. We just kinda mind our own business.


I cooked last night! It was epic. First time cooking since last August, and it was in  tiny kitchen with one hot plate, a SUPER tiny frying pan and a small pot. It was a pain in the ass and I don't know that I want to do it again. But I might, because it certainly is healthier.

Today I'm going to do homework for my training class and start on makeups for leather working. Hell, I may even finish makeups for leather working. Then all I'll have left is horse health. Sweet! I still have n't talked to Nancy about what the horse health makeups are, but I'll figure that out this week.

Yesterday Becka and I went to Columbus. We were going there to attend Equine Affaire, which is a giant horse convention, but once we got into the city we decided we'd rather wander the city than see more horses, when we go to a horse school. So we wandered the city, met some very interesting people, stopped by a farmers market which was SO lovely to see!!!! They had fresh fruits and vegetables, flowers, handmade jewelry, fresh baked goods, paintings, and several food vendors serving foods from around the world including PHO and SUSHI! I was dying for some sushi, but I still refuse to have sushi in a place that is completely inland. Sorry, Abby, you've got to wait just a few more weeks. :P  Then we went to a TARGET (Yes, a Target) which was SO exciting, seeing a Target rather than a Walmart. We got some ingredients for our dinner, some ice cream, and then... There was a STARBUCKS inside the Target!!!! I was SO ecstatic. I got a grande caramel machiatto, and it was simply amazing. Overall, yesterday was just a tiny taste of home. I didn't get homesick, surprisingly, but rather... A have a renewed determination, to finish these last 7 weeks strong. Then I can come home not feeling like a hopeless loser, and I can start up my real life again doing things I really love every day.


My goals for this year?
1. Finish school strong!!
2. Get HOME by the beginning of June!
3. Get back to training (and riding)
4. Start up official business
5. Buy a puppy!!!!!!
6. Have a beautiful wonderful time with my family and friends!! <3 p="">

I believe I have some good fuckin' goals.


god dammit, I'm considering getting a labret again.

working on makeups

finished for riding (fall quarter- thought I finished them, but apparently NOT)
finished for training
HOPEFULLY finished for business

all that leaves is horse & barn care (gotta talk to becka about that)
horse health (gotta talk to nancy about that)
and leather working (gotta talk to max about that)

and it's only week 5. ha. go me! I am so graduating at the end of this quarter!!!

I'm so close I can taste it .... hahaha

writing an essay

Something I think I would like to do right now. I would like to be able to sit in my room with it's green painted walls, big, open windows, soft music playing on my stereo, cat curled next to me, with my computer on my lap, so I can write. I don't care what I'm writing, I just want to write. I would like some tortilla chips and a glass of water to snack on. I want to write all morning and most of the day. By evening I would feel accomplished, and proceed to spend time in the kitchen with my mom who is sitting at the island with a glass of wine and a catalogue, waiting for her soup to cook, with Nina Simone playing in the background.


The next morning I would spend my morning cleaning the kitchen. Rowan would come over, and we would have coffee and chat and listen to good music, and once I finish cleaning we would go into the TV room and watch Storage Wars, or Buried Alive (Extreme Hoarding).

These are things I miss doing... Things that my heart is aching for. And what my soul is aching for? My soul is aching for meditation at my altar, for that deep connection with Earth and Elements to be re-bonded. And of course, my soul is aching for the horse. To be on a horse, to play with a horse, to communicate and build relationships with a horse.

Thankfully, I only have a bit longer to wait until I get to do these things again. 

business makeups. DONE!

Now I just have..... wait, hold on .. two makeups for Jen V (1st quarter ride class) and a few for horse & barn care. then I just have to do a few for MaryLew in training, a few for Nancy in horsehealth... yeah I got this!


lol skipping doesn't pay.. but really, it's not that bad. 

who has LESS than two months left???

That would be me, sir.

That would be me.

FRIDAYYYYYYYYY

FUCK YA DUDE!!!!!!!!

too bad I have weekend feed. YAY SATURDAY MORNING UP AT 6:20AM!!!! WHOO!


but hey I'm feelin optimistic so it's cool :) 

My brain is aching

My cold started with this nasty headache... Then it went away by Friday, was gone through spring break, and is back again starting yesterday. Why is it back? My cold is almost gone, I've just got a cough now. But damn. My head is killing me.... It's next to impossible to completely focus on anything else, because it's actually bothering me this much. Not cool... 

Hopefully it'll go away. And I am so done smoking. I don't know if the cigarettes have anything to do with it but just in case I'm done. Good thing I don't get addicted to easy and have amazing willpower :P 

but when I need you

Baby, you're NEVER THERE!!!!!!!



haha Love CAKE!